I recently decided that, for the time being, I am over the whole relationship thing. I try to build something, and inevitably someone f's me over. I want to find something on my own with someone who doesn't get the background of the athlete's culture. I want someone appalled at the thought of having the stresses of a club on your shoulders. I want someone who I can explain my frustrations and have them not understand at all.
Why does this deem the title "Growing a Pair"? Because this is my decision to start to make my own statement and bring my own individuality to a relationship. My previous life revolved around my dependence on another's outlook to base and evolve my own. I no longer care about that. I want to make my own decisions and emotions on what I want and not what someone else wants out of me.
Maybe I have come to this after hours of listening to self empowering music, maybe watching Martin Jones getting smashed by the Blackhawks...maybe maybe what if what if. This is my New Year's resolution: to stop being a pussy and assert myself. And FTR.
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